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Well ,what would one think of the word "sorry"? Something that the British just left behind for us to use? Wouldn't blame one if they thought so ...I mean...ya you're right .It's more often said than meant .That's why it comes so easily .

"Sorry...I really am sorry" !That's pretty easy to say...I've said it before...I've said it to many .
Have I actually meant it...well...after all that was said ,things went on fine...I was forgiven .
That's what matters right ?Everything's going on fine....everyone's happy...amidst all that who's going to bother about "self-examination" when you're having a good time and all the fun !

But wait...what if you have to walk up to someone ,whom you're not even sure you've hurt ,and say a sorry and you're doing it because you're instincts say that something's just not feeling right .You're really good friends once upon a time and now...you fake your "smile-acknowledgements" and you ignore each other...for God knows what reason .And the worst part is...you're not sure if the person's treating you the same way you're treating them...I mean...all that they must be doing is wondering why you're acting "konky" after all the good times of laughter and stupidity that you've shared !

It's an "ughhh" feeling .You're sorry for something you've done ,which they don't even bother to hold against you(They wouldn't have even noticed it) .You're sorry because you've been a recidivist .You do the same thing once and again ...say your sorries ....and viola....you're doing it all over again...
You haven't meant those sorries and now that you're really sorry for all those non- genuine ones...you don't have the gut to go and express it....cause you're just not sure !

Well doing it was the "biggest" challege for me .Your body gets heated and legs get cemented and all you want to do is change your direction and you end up compromising .
It's not a matter of 1 hour ,or 1 day or 1 week or 1 month preparation .It's more .It's trainng your guts to lay it all down ....flat and open .

Now once I've done it ,did it help ?

There was no drama...or dialogue . Just "I donno what you're talking about" kinda reaction .
Something I didn't want to happen .
I wanted the drama....I wanted the dialogue !No ,I'm not a movie maniac !
But I'd be sure that everything's cleared .Nothing's hazy .Everthing made to see !

All I can say is.....I've done my part and thank you for the oppurtunity .

I didn't wait for the "best" time .There's no such thing .

I don't know if I did it at the "right" time .

I didn't wait for the end .
And I think that's right enough !