What if one of days called 'i don't feel important' comes across your path !? Most of us wait for someone to make us feel special: To make us the top of their priority list. And we obviously wait in anticipation and blind notion that 'someone' will make us feel belonged and important. Oh how we crave for those days when someone remembers we exist and celebrates us being in their lives. A long forgotten hug or kiss acquired, is treasured dearly within the deepest depths of our fragile hearts so that its feeling may never leave us... may never wear away. Hence most of us may remember our 'first kiss' or 'first touch' or 'first hug' or 'first smile' or 'time spent together' with endearing fondness !
We wish maybe someone will go that extra mile and try atleast.
We know the saying 'Depend on none for your happiness, for happiness comes from within'.
Well... I wouldn't really back up that quote, for the outside plays an equal role to making us happy from the inside. Gosh ! You can't keep hugging yourself forever... You need a hug from another as well !
We all know the 'worthless' feeling.
We cry. We cry some more. We cry louder. We pick up a kerchief. We wipe our tears. We look into the mirror to make sure our eyes are red no more. We smile to make ourselves better. We smile to make our expression go into the 'neutral' mode. We smile to hide our tears. We resume 'natural' form. And the day goes on.
But somewhere... we're still crying at the back of our minds.
It's good to cry... It really helps. It's like letting the 'sadness monster' go.
We know we must let go of one thing to gain another. So I guess that's the same logic with sadness and happiness.
A friend told me 'You're as important as everyone else' and I just wanted to puke. The last thing you want to be told is that you're importance is no greater than the next person. In a general philosophical sense, he may be right. But I wasn't brooding about being important to the world. Cause to the world I'm just a person. I wanted to feel like 'The World' to someone.
Such crappy days make their presence felt, either seldom or often. And most of the times somehow, something or someone may come along to cheer you up.
And for the times when you just keep waiting in vain for something or someone to come, just understand... Sleeping helps. Wake up and face the sun. And cry if you must in your bath, but most importantly believe there's a nice bakery waiting down the road waiting for you to gorge on its finest biscuits, or a cute puppy wallpaper waiting to hear your giggle, or a luxurious spa waiting to enhance your being or a simple smile waiting to be passed on from 'someone' to you or maybe a nice message sent to you at the end of the day by the one who needs you :)
